i think happy people are so boring.

politics?!
sigh mark sanford
bringing shame to republicans everywhere
an arena of disappointment
but i still want to enter it someday
i want my world to lie beyond beach hangouts

i think you're angry at me because i have the opportunities that you don't.
i have my dreams too, and the determination to see them come true.
it's not like i voluntarily ask others to inquire about my future plans; they just do.
it's not my fault.

just some random thoughts
in life
it's not the thought that counts
maybe you have the thought, but that doesn't count for anything
it doesn't give you any credibility
until you actually do it.

oh my goodness. i have hardly ever experienced revelations of such epic proportions. God, you are SO good.

they say that college is freedom. for the first time in your life, there's no mom that comes creeping around telling you to get off oovoo, no dad around to monitor your snacking, no curfews, no rules. you can basically do whatever you want, whenever you want.

but what is true freedom? it is only found in Jesus Christ. no longer being a slave to your sins; your insecurities; the chains that have dragged you down for so long you feel like you don't have the strength left to fight. being free of the crushing weight of others' opinions and expectations because your identity is found in Him. not comparing yourself to others, because in His eyes you are unique and infinitely precious. being released into forgiveness when you stumble. knowing that you are weak; but that it is not your strength that can help you keep on going, it is His strength alone.

oh man. that's a freedom far greater than the ones you'll be faced with in college.

help me, Jesus. I can't do it, but you can.

what am i going to do

i realized that i thrive on new experiences.
new places
new people
new cultures
i think they bring out a side of me that i love; a side that doesn't come out in diamond bar
but that side is still me
isn't it?

sigh another rant in the life of a teenager

my life is really shitty right now, not going to lie.
though it has been filled with playing and hanging out and all that stuff
my trip to europe has pretty much gone down the tubes
my relationship with my best friends is shit; probably about to get worse
add my mom to that too
i just want to fast forward to september already

song of the summer is definitely queen: don't stop me now

I'm a shooting star leaping through the sky
Like a tiger defying the laws of gravity
Im a racing car passing by like lady godiva
Im gonna go go go
Theres no stopping me

it just gives me a "yayyyy" feeling.
past week has just been playing playing playing.

i can't believe this happened again.

i'm an idiot, but so are you.

graduation

sigh. it was a great day. just sweet; not even bittersweet.
the ceremony started out SO badly because i snuck my phone in and called my dad; he said that he and my mom and sister were probably going to miss seeing me graduate because they had to take my two grandpas home bc their legs were hurting and they couldn't sit through a 2 hour graduation
i wanted to cry
and then i didn't see any church peoples in the stands. i thought there was no one there to see me graduate!
and then after the ceremony..dang! so fun! just rushing around taking pictures with people; turns out a lot of people came to support me :) thanks for the sign hanners and the flowers grace and christina!
dinner at coconut bay: funnnn; although kind of spoiled by the presence of two other grads who thought they could just show up when they didn't even lift a finger to help me or julie plan it
bob's afterwards...it was alright.

basically, the running joke of the night was "dang stephanie, where are you going to college again? oh waittt....you're not going!!"
they literally kept the joke up for HOURS. EVERY time i tried to say something mean to them: "oh wait, but i went do college, didn't i? where are YOU going to college? oh wait..."
haha. it made me realize that i really am alone on this path!
i'm kind of scared, but so grateful for the opportunity
i'm going to make the most of it!