this morning i woke up and just felt so damn lonely. i go out all the time; come home at 12 smiling and voice hoarse from shouting and talking and having fun. but when i think about how some of my friendships have fallen apart, i can't stand it.
a year ago this time, i was still in high school doing homework and having to wake up early; having to deal with teachers and assignments. but i had best friends, and because i had them i knew everything would be okay.
now, after 3 months of fun and sun, i don't feel that same security. i don't know if everything is going to be okay.
i just want my best friends back.
and the worst part is that i know is was mostly my fault things went bad.