i'm going to take a watermelon, write every college that rejected me on it, and then drop it off a roof.
thanks david.
something to look forward to.
i just read someone's blog.
it surprised me and shocked me.
i love it when i discover that people have hidden depth that only comes out through typed/written words. or maybe its not hidden. maybe i just don't see it.
i feel bad for judging you! it's one of my faults.
sorry for not helping you when i could have. but i think now its too late.
i liked this person's blog because it was INTENSELY private content, but yet they made it public anyway. i mean, who cares what people see and read and think? that's real courage.
they wrote a lot about a relationship they had.
i'm really tired of writing little trite sentences. i write these for two reasons: i don't want to reveal all, and i somehow think brevity=deep; profound. not true. that's why east of eden was a billion pages long. and why there were 3 volumes of lord of the rings.
so basically, i'm going to write about how i feel about a relationship i just ended.
i'm not good at poetry, but i am good at ranting.

mad: i really am not kidding when i say this whole thing is stupid. it really is. you were one of my best friends. i'm mad that you took that away from me.

annoyed: your stubborness is annoying. i feel like you enjoy playing the martyr. and thanks for defriending me on facebook. was that really necessary?
now i know its reallllllllly over. (that was a healthy dose of sarcasm and spite)

sad: did i mention that you were one of my best friends? sometimes i find myself wanting to tell you about something that happened, something that i need advice on or is just really cool and i want to share and have you smile at me. and then i realize that you're not there anymore. i wish i knew where you were going to college.

bitter: at this point, i hope you never get over me. (i always was a bitter girl, you said so yourself)

humor: NONE. i don't see why you find this all so funny. its really not. ( i should file this under annoyed too.)

embarrassed: i know it was mostly my fault.

whatever. i've gone on with my life and so have you.
but just you wait.
we will talk before the end of the year.