oh, college college collegessss. how you have humbled me and broken me down. i guess i thought i was invincible. now nothing, i repeat nothing, is sure.
next year, this time i could be
-chilling on the beach at ucsd as a international studies major
-playing ultimate frisbee on the lawns of william and mary/uva/whatever east coast school (althought that chance is honestly diminshing with every day)
-at kansas city hangin' out with God on the Onething internship
-working in brooklyn, newyork as a metro minstries intern
oh gosh. lately, i have been going through these intense mood swings. one minute i feel that the world is within my grasp; that the next morning the sun will rise and happiness will come. college can wait. the world can wait. my personal dreams and desires cannot; and so what if it takes a little time before I see the gates of an institution of education once more?
and there are times when i feel chilled to the bone; i surf college websites for hours upon hours; i wince at the clanging of my empty mailbox. i feel like i don't have the strength to be different.
a few more weeks. then we'll see.